What you see and identify as “yourself” is but a tiny fragment of the vastness that you truly are.
July 13, 2017 by John Smallman
Life is for living, and to do that you need to use your human competences and abilities, which are different for each of you, and that is part of your human life and learning experience. With some people you feel very much in harmony – “on the same page” – while with others there often appears to be no point where you can meet and exchange meaningful ideas. And even with those with whom you feel most in harmony there will be disagreements and confusions. However, these are not conflict situations unless you choose to make conflicts out of them.
You tend to do that when you are in fear, fear about shortcomings or inadequacies you perceive in yourself and for which you judge yourself negatively, sometimes quite harshly. As I have often told you, being human can be very unsettling and disturbing. You chose to experience separation from Source, and by doing so you imposed severe limitations on yourself which can be extremely frustrating as communicative interactions between you and others break down due to misunderstanding or misinterpretation. Deep within yourself you know that this isnot how things should be, you have an inner but hidden memory of knowing everything you ever wish to know, and being without it or separated from it is intensely irritating and frightening because consequently you often see yourself as incompetent and fear others will also see this, and judge and reject you because of it.
You do need to remind yourself that you are, and always have been and will be, an infinitely beloved child of God, perfect in every way because what God creates can only be perfect. What you see and identify as “yourself” is but a tiny fragment of the vastness that you truly are. Your human body is but a tiny receptacle into which you have poured a very small part or aspect of yourself to enable you to experience separation, aloneness, abandonment. In doing so you chose to severely limit your knowledge of who you are in Reality. But you were created perfect, in joy, and although that knowing is hidden from you in human form, you all do have a very deep longing to return to Oneness with Source, your eternal and natural state.
That split off part of yourself developed your ego to help you survive in the physical realms, and you gave it free reign to use your body and all its competences and abilities – physical, mental, and emotional – which it has done. It seems that you have given your power away to it, especially when your emotions run wild in fear, panic, or anger. However, this definitely is not the case. You can override it any time you choose to do so by standing back from the situation, pausing, and observing it. The emotion will not dissipate immediately, but you will realize that you do not have to act on it, that you have a choice. Frequently you choose to act on it – often irrationally – in the moment because it appears to satisfy an intense need. That need is the need to be seen, recognized, honored, accepted, and LOVED!
Of course you want to be loved because Love is your nature. Feeling unloved is extremely painful, and that is the feeling or sensation that separation provides in abundance. Most of you look for love in relationships – parents, siblings, friends, work associates, sports team members, and life partners – but for any of those to work for you you have first to find the Love that resides eternally within you. You are Love, and although you can find temporary solace in human relationships, you will only find longterm solace, comfort, and contentment in a human relationship when you have discovered the infinite abundance of Love that resides within you.
For most humans growing up is a time during which they experience a lot of negative judgment and non acceptance. Humans need to be touched often and lovingly from the moment of physical birth, and as they grow and develop, in order for them to uncover or discover the Love residing within them, but mostly hidden until lovingly awakened by close relatives. When this does not occur they either learn to toughen up, pretending to themselves and others that they have no needs, or they choose to be hurt and needy victims – actually both facets tend to alternate within them depending on the situations in which they find themselves.
Eventually, however, everyone receives a wake-up call to alert them to the fact that they are spiritual beings. The material life a human leads can never provide true satisfaction. No matter how much “stuff” one gathers, whether material – toys, houses, cars, works of art, memorabilia that appeals to one – or emotional – admiration, adulation, respect, honors – in the end it is never enough!
Your nature is Love, the Love of God with Whom you are eternally One, and the apparent lack of Love (because I assure you it only seems that you are lacking It) that you consistently experience as humans is excruciatingly painful and terrifying. You built the illusion to experience this, but you had absolutely no idea how painful it could and would be. And the wake-up call you receive, although different for each one of you, always includes the painful awareness that life as a human is not and never can be enough.
The Love you all seek resides permanently within you, so cease seeking, go within, be quiet, and allow It to embrace you. It most assuredly will if you allow It to do so. Most of you have great difficulty in quieting your minds sufficiently to become aware of the Love within because your egos are most vociferous in their efforts to convince you to focus fully on the physical environment that the illusion supports. Patience is required, but your modern age is all about rushing, about so much to be done in so little time. But in truth very little needs to be done in a rush.
To meditate, contemplate, relax, or unwind is to release the need to rush and, in so doing, discover that you do have enough time for all that really needs to be done to ensure your healthy survival as a human. It is the rushing and attendant anxieties that cause you to develop illness – physical, mental, or emotional – and of course you should never judge or blame yourselves for illnesses. They are just more intense wake-up calls to persuade you to go within where you have everything you need to find peace, satisfaction, and joy – Love!
When you find the Love within It shines out brightly from you and draws others to you. Love is irresistible, but often you mistake temporary human experiences for Love, and as they do not last they can cause you grievous pain and suffering. Go within, Be Still, and allow Love to embrace you as It most surely will. Then peace will envelop you and you will discover that you do have the strength and persistence to allow yourself to be the Love that you have been seeking. When that occurs your fears and anxieties will become far less demanding or intrusive, you will deal far more easily with the problems and issues with which your human life presents you, and then you will find that those fears and anxieties have in fact dissolved as Love guides you in every moment.
Your loving brother, Jesus.