by Pamela Kribbe
Dear friends, dear attendees, I am Jeshua, your brother and kindred spirit.
I was a human being on Earth – do not forget that. I was a human being among people who came to bring something new, a spark of consciousness that touched people’s hearts. In my humanity, I was often tormented and filled with despair, because I felt as if I was bringing water to a desert, a desert that I also suffered under. Energetically, there was a collective consciousness that was veiled or closed by fear and thoughts of power. In the time when I lived, there was a strong hierarchy. That hierarchy kept everything and everyone – rich and poor, powerful and powerless, man and woman – separate and in their place. As a result, the energy of the soul, which is one of freedom and creativity, had difficulty flowing. I came to bring innovation, often feeling trapped in the reality of the time.
I am telling you this because you are going through something very similar. In your hearts, a consciousness has awakened in which there is something new. You feel the call of your heart, while at the same time you feel you cannot adapt and fit in with the existing traditional consciousness, and this creates a split within you. You really want to follow the call of your heart by living with passion and inspiration, and to give shape to the new, yet you feel the opposition, resistance, and inertia of the existing power structures. These structures are based on fear, and want to hold on to the past; they are rigid, want to maintain control, and resist the free flow of the soul.
You are in the same dilemma as I was; your road is not that different from mine. Which is why I address you as a brother and kindred spirit, so you can see and understand who you are. You are a messenger. Yet, at the same time, you are also a human being who wants to experience a connection with others, in a human way. So, the question is: How are you to bring in the new and be a leader of the new age, yet stand up for yourself and protect yourself sufficiently in a reality that does not suit you at the soul level?
Many lightworkers experience the same problem. They are sensitive, highly complex persons who experience the resistance in the society around them and are touched by the pain, the suffering of others, and also by the pain in nature from the violence inflicted upon the Earth. Humanity is facing a global crisis in nature, as well as human disasters and suffering, so there are more and more indications of the need for fundamental change. You already feel that call within yourselves: the urge to open to another consciousness. But when you experience that call, the call of a heart-borne consciousness, you also become aware that you are an outsider, an outcast. You look at reality and you see and feel that you do not fit in.
I ask you to first realize that the isolation and loneliness which you experience have a strong connection to who you are and to what you bring from your soul. Therefore, feel your greatness – feel the light of your soul. You often feel abandoned or disowned, and that you cannot participate in this world, but know that it is not because you have failed or waiver. You distance yourself precisely because you can not live the accepted way from your developed heart and sensitivity.
Your response is also a result of all the images of success in your world, of the things you are supposed to achieve. These images have penetrated into your consciousness and make you feel like you are an outsider, that you are failing if you do not achieve these false images of success, and the result is that they can make you feel insecure. So it is very important that you see through these images, that you really understand what your role is in this day and age: that you are a precursor for the new. That is the first step: to understand who you are, to understand why you need space for yourself, why you are different, and why you often can not be yourself in the existing ways of thinking and doing. And it is importatnt to not just understand this with your head, but to feel it in your heart and to remember your calling.
Now go with your attention to your heart. Welcome yourself there. Feel like you are a pioneer. Feel that you remember something significant, that you have a depth and wisdom within you which are of great importance to this world, even though the world does not yet recognize and acknowledge this wisdom. However, more and more things are beginning to change, especially because of the current crises on Earth. Holes are being punched in the old consciousness. Images of traditional leadership are being increasingly seen through, especially images of dogmatic, rigid, male leadership. It is precisely this form of leadership that is now very much present in many sectors of the world. This mode of leadership undermines its own validity because it makes visible to more and more people how power and control work in all areas of life. The structures of the old are becoming more and more exposed.
You are playing a role in this process by embodying an awareness that deviates from the existing structures. However, you still have old representations of how best to change things as a lightworker, and you often respond by going into an action-oriented mode. But things around you change mainly because of the quality of your consciousness, and that has a huge influence. Fueled by the images of your society, you often are still focused on tangible results: “What am I supposed to do? What kind of work? What’s my role?” The emphasis on “doing” often throws you off balance and also makes you impatient, because you see too few tangible results in the outside world.
However, a real change of consciousness takes place internally and only has external consequences over time, and this also applies to you individually, in your own life. When you look back on your life, you can sense the profound emotional transformations that only later bear fruit. Often, that happens much later than you think or expect because inner transformative changes occur at a deep level. It is not as if a button in your head is turned on or off; it is not so much a mental process, as an emotional process. Each of you has emotional habits and patterns which require a lot of strength, silent self-reflection, and feeling in order to break through. And this applies not only individually, but also worldwide.
Your greatest strength lies in the internal work that you all do, and that work has external consequences. Do not fixate too much on what you see when you look at the condition of the world around you, because internal change is the key. Especially in this life that you lead, in this day and age, it is very important to focus on your inner selves, because that is where miracles happen. Facing yourself with love and openness of mind, not judging yourself, and breaking through the depictions and images of society by which you have been conditioned. This is where your greatest mission lies, and you radiate that out to others without knowing it.
Focus, for a moment, on the judgments you have within yourself about your life, or about being you. Focus on something you do not think is going well in your life and whether you think this is your fault or that of others. There is always a certain pointedness in judgment. Condemnation carries aggression, which can also be directed against yourself. See if you can see in yourself how you do that. And feel how the energy of judgment blocks you. Judgments close the door, which is the opposite of openness and flowing along with your soul.
Ask your body, “Where am I blocking myself by judging?” Find out which part of your body reacts to that judgement and is connected to it. Maybe there is a part that feels constricted or contracted because you are shutting yourself off from life because of disappointment and disillusionment. Open that door again! Feel the constricted part of yourself and imagine water flowing toward it, a kind of energetic water that is gentle, and feels warm and pleasant. Feel that the water wants to transport you to a new life, a new consciousness. Feel that you can let go of judgment.
Give yourself space. Be open to the new that you can not yet grasp with your thinking mind. Be aware that you are in a transformation of your consciousness and that a real transformation always takes you beyond the boundaries of the known. And that means you do not yet know exactly what is going to happen. Try not to look or understand or predict from the old, the known, but be open to the new – a new consciousness. That is the most important thing. The rest, the outward events, will follow by themselves.
Thank you so much for your attention. You are never alone. You are connected to a field of kindred spirits, of like-minded souls. You are always being held.
Thank you very much.