by Pamela Keibbe
I am Yeshua, your brother. I stand next to you, not above you. I want to touch your heart, that place where you sense that you know. I ask you to let go of your head, your thought processes, and to be present here from your heart.
Doing that is no longer natural for you because you are trained to be in the world from the perspective of your head: to analyze life, to mentally understand, to be absolutely certain before you make choices and decisions. Feel for a moment how much is happening by way of your head as you act and talk with people in your everyday life and at work. Imagine, in a concrete way, how much energy circles round your head. See how active your mind is in your everyday life. It seems there is so much to do, to arrange, to organize; so much information and stimuli that bombards you that you simply cannot absorb it all, yet your head attempts to manage all these impressions.
However, there is another reason why it does not come spontaneously for you to look and feel from your heart. The heart is deep; it has emotional depths and heights that make many of you apprehensive, like a wave that propels you, but to where you do not know. Feelings are considered to be “scary”, which is a belief you have inherited from your tradition.
Much has changed over time, but there is still this fear of really deep feelings and emotions. However, it is only through deep feelings and emotions that you can enter the domain of the soul. The soul has no “messages” for the head. The head and its thoughts are only necessary when you are interacting with the outside world and there are things that need to be done. But the deeper, underlying decisions and choices actually take place in other dimensions. The dimension of the soul is directly linked with the dimension of feeling, the emotional, the heart.
However, it takes determination and great effort to let go of the head, because it is a collective burden which you all bear. So I ask you to turn your attention quite deliberately to the area of your heart – to go out of your head and into your heart. Feel the stream of light that is present there. Whether you know it or not, the light is always there. Your soul is always connected with you, even though you are not aware of this fact while your thoughts are busy with other things. But you can become aware of this connection by regularly turning your full attention to your heart and to your entire body. Your body is in direct contact with your emotional well-being. How do you really feel? Not how should you feel, or how you think you are supposed to feel.
The body is spontaneous and authentic. Sense how your body feels in its entirety. Is it tense? Then release the tension. See if the stress can slide off your muscles. Connect with the Earth: the feeling, loving Mother who supports you. She thinks not, but she knows all. Feel her love for you and know that you are welcome here as her child. Feel your feet firmly on the Earth. Let the Earth energy flow through you so that you relax even more and you feel welcomed by the dimension of feeling of the Earth and of your soul. Earth and soul belong together, but in the past, you were made to believe this is not the case. You were told that Heaven and Earth are separated; that the Earth is the domain of the imperfect: desire, sensuality, sin; that Heaven is that lofty place where only love and wisdom prevail. But these ideas are simply not true; they are false, erroneous ideas.
Heaven reaches out to the Earth in the form of your soul who incarnates here by descending into a body of flesh and blood – and your heavenly soul does this consciously. Your soul is not here doing some form of penance, or the result of karma, or to transcend sin. Your soul is here to bring light to the Earth by connecting Heaven with Earth, and to experience how beautiful the Earth is: the beauty of the plants, the animals, the humans. Everything here is full of life as a result of the urge for growth and expression, but all that has been condemned by your tradition, which is a great tragedy. When you return to your heart as your center, the hub of your being, you are reconnecting Heaven with Earth, the soul with Earth.
The natural way of the soul when incarnated can be seen as a way of joy, of earthly love, of natural self expression, of connecting with all the other living beings on Earth in one great dance. This is exhilarating, exciting, creative, innovative. The entire tradition of stifling dogma, rules, and discipline is hostile to life; it denies the very being of the Earth and the essence of your soul. Let that tradition be a thing of the past. Stand in your full humanity and follow your heart again. Feel what is happening in your heart, right here – right now.
Imagine that a dancing woman is present in your heart. She is a messenger of your soul. Take a good look at her – or you may not actually see her very clearly, but rather you feel her. Let her talk to you. Let her tell you what she desires, what she feels like doing, what gives her a sense of joy and lightness – joy is allowed and is good. Inspiration always comes with a sense of joy and lightness, and these are energies which are at odds with excessive thinking .
I now want to say some things about “the dark night of the soul”. The soul incarnates on Earth and comes into you as an earthly human being with one aim: to manifest itself in matter and thereby to get to know itself better, to enjoy itself, and to develop and grow. That is the soul’s natural flow, its natural direction. But in your world, in the society in which you live, there are contrary forces at work, those that interrupt the natural flow of your soul. Your natural tendencies – what you want to do, what feels right to you – is disrupted early in your childhood. Almost everyone is disturbed in their natural sense of themselves and can no longer easily detect the truth of their heart. Although there are now many changes happening and new openings to the light, at the same time, you have to do deal with a burdensome legacy from the past so there is still a lot of fear and sadness in the hearts of people.
Many of you to whom I speak, and who appreciate me, are the ones who hear the call of their heart. Those who clearly feel inside themselves: “I want things to be different; I want to live according to my truth; I want to hear the cry of my soul and to truly live.” This urging, this awareness, often begins gradually through something you read, or through something that someone tells you, or is the result of someone who inspires you. But as this awareness gradually increases, contrary forces are activated because you, as an earthly human being, have absorbed the collective energy of the past, and it cannot be otherwise. Through your parents, your family, your education – the entire culture and its way of thinking – you stand with one foot in a heavy oppressive tradition, which acts in opposition to the truth in your heart.
As soon as you begin to make space in your life for the rhythm of your heart, the voice of your soul, then you will have to deal with opposing forces that tell you: “Don’t do it, it is dangerous. You can’t just avoid everything; you can’t just follow the voice of your feeling. Be reasonable; you need to adapt more.” Then doubts arise: fear of rejection; fear of the lack of money; fear of being ridiculed, of being seen as crazy. All these fears come up, to a greater or lesser extent, when you align with your soul, and this can become a “dark night of the soul”. What happens then is that the opposing forces – the fears, the doubts, the loneliness – are so strong that the light of your soul, which first encouraged you, can no longer be seen or felt.
At the same time, you cannot go back to the old way because you know you can no longer thrive there, and that knowing makes you deeply unhappy. You can no longer return to relationships that cannot give you joy. You can no longer return to a job that does not suit you, or to a situation or a life-style where you die inwardly. Yet you cannot move forward because of the fears that grip you. And this is the real turning point toward transformation and is what this present life is all about.
The new is not yet here, the power of the soul cannot yet clearly manifest in your life, so you falter, and there can be several reasons for this happening. There may be external events that place you in this “no man’s land”, in this vacuum, but it can also be a process from within. You carry a lot of feelings in you, and not only from this life, but also from the other lives you have led on Earth. You often have “inner baggage” that wants to be seen in this life in order to be healed. Know that there can be so much that comes to the surface in such a phase of crisis, in “a dark night of the soul”.
In earnest, I encourage you to tolerate the pain, the loss, or the fear that you feel. To stay with it and to remain confident that this is a passage, not an end point; that this process is necessary. When you find yourself in a dark period, when all certainties slip away, keep your trust. You are not yet ready and you cannot yet understand why and to where it leads. The door to the soul is ajar, but is not yet fully open. I ask of you, that in spite of this, to rely on the light of life itself. The universe, the cosmos, is a loving whole; it does not want to punish or hurt you. There is no benefit in punishment or pain in itself. Pain arises, suffering arises, because you do not trust in a better future, in the light that leads you and wants to shine.
You often look with longing to the past, and when you are desperate, you want to return to securities that you once had, but which are no longer there. You are truly on the way to something new, something you do not yet know or recognize. Your soul has lured you; your heart has let you know that it is good to travel the way of the new. However, when you have to deal with opposing forces, it can be very paralysing and frightening
I ask you right now to invite your inner child to come to you, that part of you which represents the spontaneous and instinctive. It is the most vulnerable part of you. It is a child in many ways because it is defenceless and unable to care for itself in this world. It is still small, yet at the same time there is such a tremendous force in that child, because it remains close to your soul, like a newborn baby who is close to the realm from where it came. Invite this child to come with you into your heart.
See your inner child before you. See yourself as that child, or by any image that comes to mind. See if this child is afraid of something or needs comfort. Remember that if you want to try something new, if you really want to change your life, doing that makes you vulnerable in a very human way. And it is very human to not want to give up what makes you feel secure. The child in you can feel displaced and confused, so reach out your hand to it. Feel the great power that dwells in you. You are able to proceed on the path of your soul, your “I”, with the earthly experiences you have gained. This child of the Earth is able to follow your soul.
And if you feel that the connection with your soul, with the source of wisdom in your life, eludes you, then call upon your own strength, upon who you truly are. Believe in yourself and surrender to the forces of the Earth and of the universe. Even if you have the feeling that you are “blind” and cannot see the path before you, hold on to your inner confidence. Do not go into your head, because that is not from where the solutions will come. Thoughts often generate more fear, so find that quiet space in your heart.
Finally, I would like to ask everyone here just to be present in the area of their heart, and in silence. And then feel that we are in a joined field. In your heart, you know you are connected with all other hearts, that there is no separation. The head separates, but the heart connects. Sense the field of white and healing light that connects us. Be comforted and be seen; you are a child of the Cosmos. It is generously given to you to be yourself, to develop and to enjoy yourself to the fullest. Take pleasure in who you are!
Thank you for your attention.